Okay, so here is me with the honest truth about how I am feeling about this. This kinda has sucked for me lately. I am really struggling with eating the right foods. For some reason I want to eat like really crappy foods that I know are not good for me. I think I might subconsciously think that when I am eating bad my life is good. I don't know...but it is bugging me really bad. I have been good about my exercise. I could be better, but I am getting in at least three good one hour workouts each week. I really love my water aerobics. I have been falling into the trap of eating a little bit of something that I shouldn't have and then not letting myself eat anything else that day hoping that it will counteract my bad choice of food earlier. I know that isn't smart, but it is what I have been doing.
How to fix it?
I don't really know, but all I can do is try my best to figure this out.
I'm scared of going back to where I was before I started my weight loss journey. I don't want to fail myself or anyone else who believes in me. I know I have what it takes inside of me to do this, I just have to figure out exactly how.
I know Shawn is sick of the same kinds of food and he wants some really "Yummy" food, but I don't want to have it around because when it is around I eat it and I have a three pound gain like I had last week. I am not at all trying to blame Shawn, I just realize that I do a lot for other people when I should realize that eating right is something that I need to do for myself. No, Lasagna is not totally off limits, but not double portions three days in a row.
This is getting rambly, so I should stop now. I just wanted to post where I am since it has been over a week.
I am proud of you, Anna. I think it's good to acknowledge how you really feel and then continue onward and upward. I totally believe in you and I absolutely get what you said about not wanting to let people down that believe in you. But just know this, YOU ARE NEVER A LET DOWN.
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Hey, Anna. I can relate. Good, yummy, sweet, or fatty comfort foods are totally tied into feeling good. I mean, you think of home comforts, all is right with the world kinda' thoughts with that kind of food. Food is such an easy way to celebrate happiness and contentment. That has to be one of the hardest things about weight loss!
ReplyDeleteYou know, before I was married, I maybe had a candybar once a year--seriously. I would have sugar maybe once a week when we'd go out for frozen yogurt. I just didn't ever buy junky stuff because I felt guilty for spending the money on anything non-essential. It's a whole different ball game when you're living with a husband and children. But we can do it! It's totally hard, but we'll get better at settling for one portion of lasagna that's not going to blow our day and look forward to having another one tomorrow.
You have come so far and done so amazingly well. I know you may have little lapses here and there, but you will overcome them. I have no doubt. Time is going to fly and before you know it, you're going to be in those Size 10 pants and feeling Exultant!! Yeah, Baby!!
Anna! Can I just tell you that I think you are so freakin' awesome!!!
ReplyDeleteAnna, thank you for sharing. I think all of us can relate in some way or another to what you said. No matter what! we all believe in you! As for Shawn, you just need to put the smack down on him. As for the yummy food, I've found the Body For Life concept of a Free Day to be good for me. Anyway, that's my two bits. I sure love you!
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